December 4, 1942 - Ilya Gerber
December 4, 1942
Kovno Ghetto in Lithuania
The Diary of Ilya Gerber
Ilya Gerber was 15 years old when World War II began and almost 17 years old when Germany occupied his hometown of Kovno. Very soon thereafter, a Jewish ghetto was established and Ilya was forced to relocate along with his family and about 30,000 other Jews. He kept an extensive diary while in the ghetto, but only the third volume survived. It is not known how much of his diary was lost, but the writing that remains reveals much about the struggles and hardships facing the ghetto.
It was difficult to maintain religious observance under the harsh ghetto conditions, but many people took comfort in the effort although comfort was hard to find. December 4, 1942, was the second day of Hanukkah. Ilya drew a picture of a menorah with two candles lit at the beginning of his diary entry for that day. This was his way to observe the holiday, even if he didn’t have a physical menorah with real candles to light. Even so, his comments showed that he did not expect to experience the type of miraculous victory that the holiday marked. He wrote, “Today is the second candle lighting of Hanukkah. Miracles are not evident in the present century. They took place or happened when we did not [yet] exist. Evidently the luck of the Jews of old was greater than our luck. It is not our luck, alas, for miracles to happen to us.” And it’s getting ever colder. And still, supposedly it can get even colder here. Dad is nervous, Mom is nervous, we don’t make any money, and the money we have is just disappearing. It is two in the afternoon. It is cold in the room and I don’t know how we will resist until evening without a fire. Firewood is so expensive. I can see on everyone’s face the fear of tomorrow. What will happen?”
“It is not our luck, alas, for miracles to happen to us.”
Ilya did not find hope in his reflections on Hanukkah that evening, but he did not give in to despair either. Instead, he observed that a little comfort might come from another source; the creativity of the people in recording their experiences. “Here they tell, recite, and sing about the life of the Jewish ghetto dweller at work. Every song is a piece of life that embraces a very special period of our times. A ghetto song mostly starts with the pain and misfortune of the Jewish people and ends with the hope for better things, for a bright and happy future.” Ilya knew that hope was as necessary for survival as food and that people would seek it wherever they could. The tragedy of the Kovno Ghetto, as with so many other places during the Holocaust, was that the hope didn’t last.
You may read entries from Ilya Gerber’s dairy in the book, Salvaged Pages: Young Writers’ Diaries of the Holocaust by Alexandra Zapruder.
Learn more about Ilya Gerber and other young dairy writers during the Holocaust.